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The Aftermath of ShowGirls: What Ever Happened to Nomi Malone?

***Attention: I don't feel like summarizing the plot of Showgirls...so if you don't know the characters, go watch the film***

A few days ago, HBO blessed me with the screen presentation one of my all time favorite films, Showgirls  around one in the morning. Despite feeling exhausted, I had to pull through and watch the entire film. Every time I watch this film, I search for an explanation of why everything turned to shit in the ending. One of the many reasons this film drew my attention was the anticipation and build up that Nomi Malone, our emotionally scarred protagonist, will rise up and succeed. The first hour and thirty minutes of the film, I rooted for Nomi to nail that audition for chorus line at the Stardust hotel. You see that she had talent and that she didn't haveto gyrate and thrust against a pole at the Cheetah Strip Lounge. I had all these expectations for her and for some reason her characters failed to make me like her at times. Nomi walked away (or ran out of something, *Literally*) she didn't want to be in because of her dignity. If she didn't want to sleep with strangers in exchange for money, she didn't do it. In all fairness she wanted to be careful of how people treated her in the business, but she was also very selfish and stubborn. She didn't want to fall back into the dark past she ran so far away from. So she let others suffer, especially the people who wanted the best from her.

I wasn't expecting all to go well in the finale, but why is it that Molly was left alone in the hospital after suffering the traumatizing rape incident with Andrew Carver. Nomi got her vengeance out on the guy, which is great and all, but now Molly practically was unemployed and handicapped. Maybe she would have received some hush money in the end. I just don't see the point of her being abandoned after she rescued Nomi from being homeless and kept quiet after witnessing the whole stair case shit with Cristal. 

As for Cristal Connors, Nomi's arch enemy, I secretly wanted them to develop an actual relationship with one another. It didn't have to be sexual or anything like that. Cristal could have been a mentor to Nomi and show her how the business works. But that film was memorable because of that awkward  tension between the two characters. So I guess if the plot changed than Nomi wouldn't find the ambition to become a Show Girl. Or even get an audition Thanks to Cristal.

Going back to Nomi, according to her cases she dealt with drug abuse, dealing with the law and all types of weird twists and debauchery. I knew that Nomi was a bad ass and she wasn't very good at hiding her past. She always gave a bad reaction when people offered her coke or sex. How come no one was suspicious about her past? (DIFFERENT PLACES! is never a good answer, honey!)

I still wonder what her upbringing was like, how did she become a dancer, and what gave her the initiative to go to Vegas out of all places to dance. Wasn't she from New York? Couldn't her dancing be appreciated in a city where Broadway and musicals have such a strong career point?

It's really confusing because although Nomi's past bercame exposed, she still had a chance to continue to be the Star of the Show. The only thing is that she would have to deal with the infamy and hatred of the other Showgirls. I guess thats why people go on to write fan fictions about what could have happened. But I don't have time to write fan fiction because Im not getting paid to do that.

Blogger Diary Entry 4,309,349,96,589...

For anyone who thinks that this is a first world problem, than they are probably right...but in all honesty I have a feeling that every 21 year old has a difficult time adjusting from being a child to becoming a responsible adult. I'm out of college and I have a job. I should be thankful, Yes, but I feel stuck knowing that I have so much more to learn and improve on. And being the know it all that I am I hold onto this arrogance that I have figured everything out. I'm stuck in this world where I am trying as a daughter, as a designer and as an employee.  

 

But because I live a comfortable life, I don't know how to push myself.

I'm currently working with a few clients, and I can focus on is self promotion (*Whatever that is*). For now on, I'm sewing and updating my Facebook Page as much as possible. I can only access the internet at my job whenever the hour seems kinda dead. From now on I really want to build up a real cliental and not be so lazy. I've been stretching my video game sessions for a few more hours rather than to be productive with my free time. I mean I have been releasing photos of my new Resort Designs on my Facebook Page (Facebook.com/Designsbykika) and I am preparing for going back to college. I'm just not as busy as maybe a 21 year old should be.

 I'm not saying this because of the new year and all.. This is just me being complacent.  

 

I have to admit that I am jealous of others who seem to have it together. And I often have my days where I compare myself to others and my self esteem turns to shit. This is not at all a healthy way of thinking.  My peers and loved ones keep telling me that everyone follows their own path and being envious of others doesn't get you anywhere in life. But once you feel the envy, you start to think that whatever you'll do for yourself will never live up to the standards of what others have done with themselves.

 

Maybe this seems like a pity party.

 

Is anyone else dealing with this kind of crap? There has to be?

 

 

So I have an Official YouTube Channel Now:

Hey Kittens! So I have my YouTube page set up. And to be honest, I couldn't be any more excited to film weekly video diaries and other shannegans (however that is spelled) going on in my life. I film video diaries weekly about my progression from graduate student to free lance designer. I also film a few things going on in life just to be a little more relatable, but you gee what I'm saying. Check out My videos and Subscribe!

Go To:

https://www.youtube.com/user/noellaboopboop/videos

It should look like this.

Or go to my blog and look at the column on the right to find recently uploaded videos!

Enjoy!

How Far Would You Go To Help Someone Out? The contrast of a Fantasy Life vs. The Struggle of Others

It's the end of the Holiday season where we continue to spend money on things that we don't need and for some reason, that thought of "Things Could Be Worse" never crosses our mind. At my job, I give service for those in need. I try to be honest and be resourceful. It's not about selling or getting the big check. Although money eases the pain of life being so hard, helping others is truly a magnificent feeling. As a designer, I involve myself in this shallow industry that glamorizes the rich luxurious lifestyle, but sometimes I have to pull back and hit myself in the head with reality. Not every one goes top bed peacefully in a warm home. The fact of the matter is, some of us know these people. The more I become materialistic and buy things that I don't need, the more I blur myself from whats people are struggling to have in life.

As a designer, I work on building my image as a young trendy well rounded individual full of personality and light. I try to keep myself updated with current events and world news, but nothing fazes me that people are suffering with real life issues. Today at work, a gentleman walked in asking for my help and I couldn't do anything else but listen to his scenario. Single Father, struggling to care for his daughter, Military Veteran and overall Good American Guy. In my line of work, you should never take anything personally, but it's so hard to push those away who are in need. Thankfully, there was someone there to help him, but I swear to you I have never felt my throat throb so heard from holding back tears. 

I swear I instantly felt like the bad guy and I couldn't help, but feel like shit the entire day. 

Fulling ones self is not by the measure of how much stuff you own, how many people envy you or the living the life you wanted. Giving back is for sure an over used term, but if there is a way where you can genuinely help others in need. Knowing that you can do so much for others is truly one of the necessary values of life. It's not always about you. Its not always about me. 

When I reach some sort of success and I have enough connections and resources, I want to support my local high school and provide beneficial trade skill courses for those who strive to become young designers. Maybe even take part in a trade school for the youth. I want to develop a paid internship for young teens and adults who feel like they are in a comfortable environment and to not work under the pressure of gathering networks and putting yourself out there. It's not pretentious because we all meet wonderful individuals in life who don't exactly have the resources or finances to make something they dream of happening. 

Those are my thoughts for today. 

Update on Life Part 5,432

So for the time being I've been up and down with actually doing work this winter. There have been days where I have felt completely useless and other days have been all about work, sewing and designing.

I hate the Winter blues....I mean at least Christmas is in two days.

And I started a video diary on my YouTube Channel as well. I totally forget to mention that. My username was from my old YouTube channel and I changed my name for the channel, but the username is still the same. SO YEAH...My username is Youtube.com/noellaboopboop.....

So I'm doing whatever I cant to get subscribers and views on my videos...It's just that I'm not used to being so open about displaying my awkwardness on camera.

My social life as usual has been pretty slow. The fact that most of my friends are busy finishing their semesters with finals and projects, I have to wait to hang out with them after the holidays. The only social interaction I get these days are with my family, my co-workers and my boyfriend. I miss my friends dearly. 

My main focus is to spend my time wisely and get done with the remaining projects. I don't have time to sit on my ass and be lazy.

I need to feel fabulous 24/7 to keep my spirit up. 

Christmas is everything right now.

I'm the only person in my family to be excited about Christmas, so it's usual for me to be more enthusiastic for no reason. I've decided to decorate my apartment with two trees, (One Traditional, One Pink), I decorated my office and I am encouraging all of my family members to decorate every crevice of their home. Im that kind of gal.

I have one month to plan the only event of the year that matters. The commercials of spreading holiday cheer and consumerism is getting to me, because I didn't get a chance to buy all the presents in the world. In the end, I know that everything will be fine, but the pressure is on. I mean how many people are excited for the same thing that I am.


And its on to make this year the best Christmas yet. And sadly to say, I have been spending more money on presents for myself as well. Online shopping stole my soul and I bought myself over 4 monster high dolls which I will be playing and mesmerizing all by myself on Christmas morning.

But being selfish is far from celebrating the Holiday cheer so I have to pretend to act like I have interest in some of my family members who I haven't spoke to in a while. Meh, I might as well be nice for once.

My job doesn't take any excuses for me to be lazy after the holidays, but I feel the urge to pig out, be lazy and play my video games until my eye balls fry. I seek to be the laziest person after the holidays are done.

And all after the holidays are done, I'm keeping my tree up until the end of February and have no feelings that basically the most important holiday had passed. Forget about Easter, or the Fourth of July. 

I know that Christmas is the most personal holiday for a lot of people because its an event that we have always lived for as young children. I've seen the home videos of me as a toddler opening up presents. Everything seemed so perfect like my life wasn't changing every 5 seconds. It was a celebration of free spirit and coming together as a family. 

Individuality is overrated in Fashion these days...

I believe that in this superficial world, we are made to believe that only the most beautiful, rich and well known human beings are allowed to be an influence in the fashion world. Celebrities set the trends and we want to live up to the standards of following them. It's a non stop marathon of keeping up with the higher echelon in Fashion so we can feel accepted. People say that fashion is a lifestyle: I snort at that expression because it's all bullshit. Back when Fashion set out to become about identifying your tribe or niche, clothes were all about setting standards for yourself. People outdid themselves to stand out and grab the most attention. Its all the same charade. Its the popularity contest of the wealthiest people flashing their wealth to the poor individuals who can't afford the luxury in life. 

And its upsetting that people talk about trends and individuality because the purpose of fashion to me doesn't below in whats about to hit the runway or whats going to be featured in stores. Don't get me wrong I take inspiration from all niches of fashion from Haute Couture to Fast Fashion: Its just that every one seems to have the same taste in fashion and clothing. We all wear practically the same thing. There's no individuality in clothing these days. If I gave myself the time of day, I would have all of my clothes custom made. It's just not that simple. 

As a designer, I want to do many things for the people wearing my clothes. I want to identify myself with all of my customers. And yes I know the first rule of design is to know your customer, but how to design for a specific niche when I know people want to be different these days...

30 Years of Little Girls Learning Dance Moves From Music Videos: What this says about today.

This comic strip is so accurate, and sad to say this is so true. I remember finding myself dancing to Moulin Rouge in front of the tv at a very young age. I knew I didn't mean to be sexual, but as the years passed by and I grew older I noticed the influence of sexuality became more noticeable. In the music industry, most songs are sexual, no matter how innocent the songs may seem. Remember, "Dynamite" by Brenda Lee? Well if you look up the lyrics, she basically sings about how she's going to "explode" because she's all hot and bothered. I guess subtle lyrics were more cutesy back than, but with racy music videos, sexuality in marketing is really out there. And little girls have become the obvious target of copycatting raunchy dance moves of their idolized pop stars. I am for artists who are open about their sexuality, but I feel like some things shouldn't easily be shown on tv. And youtube doesn't have parental warning for their more explicit videos. It's just sad that every video has to be about ass and titties. And the fact that little boys and girls think that it's okay to pretend to act sexual. Kids are too young to know these things.  

Bridget Hennessey from 8 Simple Rules

There was something so charming and homey about this show that I loved back when I was a young teenager. I mean the situations that happened in the show were obviously exaggerated, but sitcoms about family always have a special place in my heart. They are incredibly cheesy and corny and far from witty, but I always imagined to have a perfect picture life. 8 Simple Rules For Dating My Teenage Daughter defiantly sets apart from the other shows. Especially, the main character brilliantly portrayed by Kaley Cuoco. She's ditsy, gorgeous and skanky. She's the type of girl I always wanted to be like in high school. It's fun to play dumb, especially when you get away with it. Maybe that's why I envision to be like her some days when I feel like my Blonde self.

 

 

She was boy crazy and she got away with dating 20 guys in a year.

 

 She has a Love-hate relationship with her sister.

 

 

She makes great life choices and she knows what she wants.

 She's a total Princess and she owns the throne.

 

She's honest and is totally materialistic. She's a living Barbie.

 

She doesn't act her age... AT ALL...

 

 

She's totally into herself.

 

This is why I want to celebrate being young. I cant help that I'm 21 years old. I want my freedom and I want to feel like teen for the last 10 years before my life becomes serious.

Fat Shaming: Are the Chubby Chicks Winning?

I believe that there is this ongoing issue of thicker women who are given shit for flaunting their belly rolls and curves. Even as a thick girl, I'm put in between this issue because I am placed between what society accepts and how we should love ourselves. The weird thing about it is that I am on both sides of the fence. The skinny perspective makes me think about a person's health, but not as much as how disgusted I am by the appearance of someone's cellulite or un-proportioned body. As cruel and harsh as that sounds, I have a Love-Hate relationship for Fat Chicks. I am all for accentuating curves, but on both ends some people just cant pull off wearing specific items of clothing. Normally, I'm not really fond of women who dress a little more risqué and at times Slut Shamming is another issue I'd rather put aside for another Blog Post. I feel like a hypocrite at times, but this is how I really feel.

Beauty Inspiration: Katie Mitchell aka TheDisneylandPrincess

One of the few people that I am stalking on Instagram is a Disney Princess/Make Up Artist by the name of Katie Mitchell. Her style is kawaii and super charming. I'm envious of her upkeep in hair and makeup. There is something about her that seems so whimsical and free spirited. I can only imagine what it's like to work for Disney. 

Check out instagram.com/thedisneylandprincess for more photos or her colorful life.

Sharon Needles is the Queen of Halloween and Not Just A Freak of Nature

 

In celebration of Halloween, I decided to dedicate this very special day to the legendary Sharon Needles. Sharon envelops the persona of any ghoul or freak for Halloween, but behind all the kooky costumes and heavy makeup there is a genuine person who loves to celebrate Halloween everyday.

 

This is Sharon. She's a walking Party City...But she's the fiercest queen to come out of any nightmare.

 

She can play any Legendary Serial Killers and get away with looking like a slut. How many times have we seen the typical Freddy Krueger Skank Costume with out seeing any actual work put into the costume.

 

She's beyond Camp and she lives for the image of Dumb and Ditsy. She can be rough around the edges, but she is crafty and very skilled with makeup.

 

She knows her place and she knows here limits. She can easily make fun of herself. She can play parodies as much as she wants to.

 

She's a total sass mouth and she can defend herself for the characters she portrays.

 

She is emotionally stable because she has been made of for her creative integrity.

 

She's the first person who I look for inspiration when it comes to Halloween makeup.

 

For crying out loud, look at that beated face.

She deserved to be crowned the winner of Ru Paul's Drag Race because she owned all of the challenges and defeated the mundane contestants.

 

Love ya, Sharon.